i'm sorry, but i don't think i can carry on with this kind of conversations anymore.

Maybe it's cause of the fucking sad songs playing on the stereo.
Maybe it's cause im fucking writing a piece of article about my family.
Maybe, it's cause it's the time of the month when my mens are coming and the hormones mess up your emotions.
But maybe, it's just the time to learn something.

kenkenpi @ 6:34 PM

omg omg omg omg.

cilla's coming back next week!!!!!

YAY.

Now i can celebrate my bday with one more DFFP member. (stupid carmen.) =)

kenkenpi @ 6:23 AM

since i was blogging for hftv, i tot i'll drop by.

but there's nothing interesting these days.
everything's piled up. I was procrastinating.

Now I'm trying to get things done but it just cramps my mood. gahh.

Well, I can't wait till cilla and carmen comes back. And the holidays are like here soon. Though I doubt there would be any holiday for me.

kenkenpi @ 6:05 PM

Im addicted to loveholic songs.
Espeacially 'mirage'where the lead singer sang

"So tell me, tell me the reason why
How can you do this to me
You break my heart and you make me cry"

Simple english words, but she sang it like theres' so much agony for you to feel.

And freak, I never thought that I relied on my family much.
But now that i'm sick, I really wish I could rely on my mum to sayang me, feed me medicine and cook food for me.

Tmr's mothers' day, even thou my sis and I often said we wouldn't get our mum anything, we still want to...except tt we are both too broke to get anything.

And I really miss her winter melon soup.

kenkenpi @ 10:34 PM

Forgive and Forget.
I can forgive others' faults easily, but I can't say the same about forgetting.

And when new faults are being introduced, the memories of past faults comes back, accumulating ontop of each other.

This is when 'bitching' comes in. Then, it would be hard to stop.

But be relief I'm not uncovering all the issues in your face, it's got nothing to do about being a hypocrite. I treasure the feelings of people around me,including yours. As usual, its all cause i have too big a conscience to ignore it. But do me a favor, figure out your own faults and stop trampling on the nerve that is about to snap. If it does, rmb its gonna be a big slap across your face.

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It's amazing how when you are bored, you can blog just about anything.

While waiting for the bus to work today, a man came up to me asking me for a dollar. He said he missed his transport or something so he had no money. I gave the man a dollar of coins, but he asked me for $2.80 after that. He kept blabbling about having to travel to Jurong and all. When I told him I didn't have anymore coins, he asked for a 2-dollar note.

I immediately recalled the incident when I gave an indian man 5bucks at a mrt, two years ago. Back then, the indian man had asked for 2dollars too. But I told him I only had a 5dollar note, which he then asked me for it and I stupidly gave it. So, not wanting to be a sucker again, I told the man I didn't have 2dollars and turned away. He got the msg and started walking away from the bus stop. I think he's trying to save the bus fare for mrt by walking straight to the mrt station. And then, I felt really mean and guilty.

What a sucker.

kenkenpi @ 12:06 PM

i miss cilla and carmen.

like super duper, even though i thought i was already used to there being just me,teddy and charzzy.

but then now, talking to salina and reading cilla's blog just make me miss the whole DFFP fooling around period.

With DFFP, there's always fun.
With DFFP, there's always laughter.
With DFFP, there's always scoldings.
With DFFP, there's always asshole momments.
With DFFP, there's always singing.
With DFFP, there's never any arguments.

With DFFP, it doesn't matter where we go.
With DFFP, it doesn't matter if we get in trouble.
With DFFP, it's alright even when we don't say a word.
With DFFP, there are dreams.
With DFFP, there are stupid fantasies.
With DFFP, there are precious memories that you know you'll always remember.

The last time all 5 of us was gathered together was during sunny's bbq. But even then, it was just a brief 20mins or so?

Where's my DFFP?

kenkenpi @ 4:56 PM

I am so apalled by how people handle things without consideration for others.
Sure, its a human instinct to protect your own interests.
But whatever happened to "i wanna help others."?

it's irritating, knowing that there so many things that you want to help but you can't do anything because its one vs the rest. I choose to stay out of the way and try not complicating things.

but seriously, this is such a fucking big shit.

Sure, I would rather put myself at an advantage, but it doesn't mean I approve about putting others at a disadvantage. Aparently, I have a fucking big conscience.

No matter what, it's just not right.

kenkenpi @ 12:38 AM