school made me feel sick to the gut today.

first it was the OC presentation for the remaining groups.
Jireh was sick and didn't make it, but he only informed his grp in the mrng right before the presentation when Sam called him.

His grp members were so angry because the teacher said they cldnt present without him. Syawal and Jovis were asking the teacher if they cld kick Jireh out of the whole grp since he didnt contribute much nor attended any of their meetings.

I was shocked at the resentment from Jovis (who i tink is a very nice girl) and Aqmar (who wasn't even in their OC group). it was then i realised that practically more than half the class were peeved by him. Felt rather sick so sam and I went to the toilet.

I don't think they are in the wrong, Jireh's at fault, but im just frightened about how they feel towards Jireh. it's like they were ready to bite his head off or something. and i never in my life experienced such situations. my previous classmates kept their unhappiness to themselves and relief it all by backstabbing. But even that isn't as scary as what happened this mrng.

Anyway, it was resolved in a way. but i'm sure there would be more of such episodes soon.

Then it was FOM lecture. Shawn was trying to get Flora to keep the extra notes for the people who didn't attend lecture. We were all so against it caz its so unfair to Flora. we kept passing the notes back to shawn and ask him pass to the guy who was friends with the people who were absent. but in the end, all the passing went back to Shawn. he suddenly got so worked up and threw the worksheets behind him agitatedly.

yeah, and then flora was irritated with how Shawn reacted. So, lecture ended on an unpleasent note.

oh yeah. i was emo-ing on the way home. i kept thinking how scary it wld be if the class broke up into fights.

or maybe i'm thinking too much. but this is the first time i got so worried over my class.

to think we only have 23 people. the conflicts seem to be within cliques and outside cliques now.

and wad if one day Jireh, novea and flora's realtionship turn ugly - where should sam and i stand?

=(

kenkenpi @ 6:17 PM