im in sch a fucking shitass mood now that i wish i cld cry.
the tears are like gathering, but im holding it back.
Contridiciting eh?

I don't know why. I came home, shouted at my sister, because she fucking uses more than 20 bucks on transport, so she asked my mother for an increase in allowance.
Seriously, just last yr, I rmb telling my mother she gave us more than enough, in fact I almost wanted to return some back to her. But i never did. Why? i spent it all on my shopping pleasures.

I've been on this shopping spree nowadays. ok not really, I just have this urge to buy useless things and I'm regretting it. My pay is not alot, yet I'm spending so much.
Tok about the ipod video, the many expensive shinhwa and minwoo dvds, the new handphone and clothes.

I was fucking hungry, but I lost the mood all to eat. I know I'm being bad, throwing attitude at my sister, my father. But i just lose patience this easily with them.
I don't like my sister toking to me about not having enough money, I hate my father telling me what I shd and shd not do.

I just feel so vexed when I come home. And it's been quite some time since I saw my mum haven I?

School. Results are coming out. I don't know where to go, or where i can go.
My parents been saying weird things that makes me feel that I might not have enough money for further schooling.

i hate money. No, I love it, I just hate not having enough for it.

Or maybe it's the new haircut. Ugly one. My collegues say it looks like a wig. And my sister reminded me everyday that it's ugly.

Or maybe I'm just tired from work. Espeacially today, never felt so tired from working in my whole life. imagine, attending to different customers at the same time, selling slippers to different customers at the same moment, having customers order you at the same minute. and I meant 3-4 customers.

Could it also be the girl from next door my shop? My collegue's sister. She's been relying on me alot ever since my collegue got transferred to the clark quay branch.

As usual, I don't know what's what anymore.

kenkenpi @ 11:02 PM