i dunoe, is it just bad mood?
today chem practical, it was not difficult. so unexpected.
and truout the practical, one song was stuck in my mind.
the death note song sang by Sugar Shikao. titled midsummer night dream.
and then after the practical when to help someone with her bajung kurong.
haha. chio la sombody. weird kid,popular kid,malay kid.
and then took a cab with her to paya labar. im so nice. she let me hear tt song on the cab.
and i cldnt stop humming that song in my head on the way home.
bought a pack of calbee potato chips and ate it up.
felt so stressed by my bio i came online.
oh pls, dun let me flunk bio.
it will pull my physics down.
lalala. me and my deathnote song. i love it.
nth to do.
only can read soompi fics.
ok la, soompi fics nice to read.
haha.
ok, o levels in...4 days.
WOW.
so near.
yet so far.
my ass.
i wanna go hongkong with carmen they all.
but my mum dun let.
its like damn cheap la?
255 for the go and return tix.
accomodation free as we can stay with carmen's uncle.
some more got maid there.
and i can spend time with carmen who is freaking leaving on 5th Jan.
aish.
today char ask me join korean lessons with her. only 5 seats left.
but i dun have enough money register now.
plus, the timing of tt class is 10-12.30pm.
wad if it clashes with my job? (im hallucinating tt ill have a job)
alright. so cool.
Ms Janice Lim totally rocks.
she's damn nice la.
told her i lost the exam kit ziploack bag she gave.
and she made me another one!
she told me she didnt have any ziplock bags left. wonder where she went to dig out another one for me.
i din go sch for the past few days so she passed it to stefanie who passed it to my sis.
ok yah. tmr beefy ask me go study with her and ted.
not sure if i want to go.
and im gonna start studying real hard now. FOR MS LIM.
SHE'S MY MOTIVATION.
im so gonna miss her. bleh.
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i was so bored i went to his cyworld.
he needs protection?
act cool dude.
super funk?
phryme. and the bloddy fish.
guess wad? He went fishing with minwoo.
having fun riding the train?
anyway ppl. pls vote for shinhwa.
http://www.jjqq.co.kr/sg/web/index.html
click
which is on the navigation bar at the left. then this page will appear and click the row with the words 'once in a lifetime'!
help me vote pls? u can vote once a day. help shinhwa win! haha.
details and neoprints - refer to rarer's blog.
i lazy say and post.
all i got to add is tt, nicole is mad.
she got super high over her ghostbuster story.
funny. she cldnt stop shaking her head. ms
the whole mrt ppl must tink we are nuts. but its ok, din se anyone familiar spying us so yah.
anyway, guess who dropped by this mrng?
choi seung hyun.
idiot. he's spamming nonsense at blogs and pissing me off.
he's a bomb. i got bombed!
so ms tailor. now u noe half the suprise. u just need to wait for the other half of the suprise.
im still not studying.
and o'levels si so near.
i keep telling myself to.
nicole keeps telling me to.
i want to.
but i just cant seem to.
bleh. why cant i just get it over and done with?
8 or is it 9 more days til o'level?
i din do any studying today.
and nicole had to remnd me its 11days til o'levels.
fuck.
i really need to buck up adn start man!
time is running out.
i hope me char and ted can get into the same course.
cilla and carmen is leaving us.
bleh.
watched deathnote with char today.
worthed my money man!
thou i din like how they changed the story frm the comic.
still prefer the comic.
and i realised the guy acting as LIGHT (kira) is some guy i liked last time frm the jap drama "heaven's coins."
i was like "fuck! its him!"
and i said he was ugly when i saw deathnote's magazine pictures!
i feel guilty bout tt. haha.
char says he looks jian. maybe? haha, i still like him.
ok no. love you. (jiyong)
omg. char. u make me start saying tt.
i din do any studying today.
and nicole had to remnd me its 11days til o'levels.
fuck.
i really need to buck up adn start man!
time is running out.
i hope me char and ted can get into the same course.
cilla and carmen is leaving us.
bleh.
watched deathnote with char today.
worthed my money man!
thou i din like how they changed the story frm the comic.
still prefer the comic.
and i realised the guy acting as LIGHT (kira) is some guy i liked last time frm the jap drama "heaven's coins."
i was like "fuck! its him!"
and i said he was ugly when i saw deathnote's magazine pictures!
i feel guilty bout tt. haha.
char says he looks jian. maybe? haha, i still like him.
ok no. love you. (jiyong)
omg. char. u make me start saying tt.
tempo's not cuming.
damn it.
no need for poison to kill jiyong.
funny. why dont they give pieces of paper to severe ties with him?
i cant choose man. i wished i was some hard-hearted freak.
at least tt wld make choosing easier.
dont, push me.
kwon jiyong yar! where are u when i needed u the most! haha.
im not toking bout charzzy. im toking bout that 3 assholes.
irritants. make me dun feel like gng for the gathering.
im a spoilsport.
but its not my fault. since they dampened my mood first.
if i go, ill prob bring poison and drug their drinks.
DIE. assholes DIE.
LOOK. Noticed my new template yet? Cool right? Its about the same as Charzzy's! LOL. (I copy her wat..) MUAHAH. OKAY.
So today we went to school at 7am though it was not compulsory for us to be present in school. But we have no life so we decided to go early. Didn't go for any crap tutorials cos we figured that we wouldn't even pay attention so yes. Yah I know we made the right choice, you don't have to tell me. :D
OKAY. So yah.. I'm laughing now.. Ok I'm not mad.. I'm just giggling to myself like some mad person. Ignore me. I think I've contracted the mad cow disease from Beefy.. OMG. Okay.
Bye I think I need to go consult a doctor now. Oh, I have added my tagboard so feel free to leave your comments. Remember to tell me what you think about the template too!!!!
Love you(Jiyong)!
im so emo nowadays. wads rong?
so i was so emo i cried today. twice.
first : before my first period. JAN was passing around her P.E tee for ppl to sign. i looked at ppl signing it and i teared.
second: mrs yip left awhile to get sum stuff and JASLYN passed me a card. i cried after reading it. its not even a super sad card.
i just cried when i read the words "although u always suan me alot and vice versa."
ok i dunoe. i almost cried when we talked about CARMEN,when JAN started to cry and when TIFFANY hugged me real tight.
CARMEN. stupid girl. she's leaving us. to melbourne for her studies. its only one yr. i got real upset when i realised she's leaving before 15th Feb. wich means b4 her bday. and she will be all alone there. and she haven even told her stead about it. aish.
JAN. my cold jokes source.
why cant a penguin wear a wig? because its hand is too short!
which bag is the easiest to open? NIKE. caz it has NIne KEys.
TIFFANY. im nto really close to her. but sumtimes when we see each other. i start making fun of her surname and nicknamed her bobdog. she makes fun of me too and does lame tings to me. and she gave me a hug today. she really squeeze me real tight. like she wasnt willing to let go of our short term friendship. tt thought upset me. i never got the chance to understand her yet.
some tings will still never change thou. RAECHAEYON still pissed me off. and its the last day of school. she just had to cut my que. to think i even asked myself "will i miss her?".
MR TAN. today me, char and ted apologised to him for all the bad tings we did to him. can't really rmb wad he say, but it wasnt sumting nice.
MS LIM. i still love her! she gave us goodbye gifts. i wont see her next yr. she's my fave teacher. i dunnoe wad to say. i didnt even say a proper goodbye to her? and i din take pic with her.
OK NOW THE IMPT PART.
DFFP.
JEANETTE,CHAR, TEDDY, SAMCILLA, CARMEN.
i wonder what will happen to us?
and i noe we all were reminising the past where we used to sing korean songs all day.
singing jiguem chorom with char,teddy,samcilla.
making up the song 'no lonerger' song for jeanette.
calling carmen our conductress and jeanette 'ah mun' the manager.
and im listening to those songs now. the dbsk fanatics days. now we not really dbsk fans le. but still love those songs we used to sing. will we sing these songs together again?
aish. anyway, ill just paste the song lyrics here. and i uploaded the songs. i dunoe why, just tot maybe any unknown passerby might wanna download it?
http://www.sendspace.com/file/4nqet8
Jigumchorom (Piano Ver.)
Busojin naui jagun gasumuro
ijenun ne modun gosul marhal su isso
sarange shijagul nege garuchyojun
guderul dashi bonego shiphjin anha
Hancham nege mojilgedo guldon
negen nomuna gu dajonghedon ibyore mal
ijen nado byonhesso gude obnun ginagin meirul
huhoe obshi salsu issulka
Girodon naui banghwange kuthul ijeya alge dwesso
(nega jun) gijog gathun sarang
Jigumchoromman then I will never cry
to onjekaji ne mamsoge nega salsu ige
gochin sesang gu aneso uri kuthil sunun obso
I know that we're meant to be
Gude bal dahnun soge odirado nega hangsang soissul goeyo
manhun naldul nama ibyorun ajig irungol
Jigumchoromman then I will never cry
to onjekaji ne mamsoge nega salsu ige
gochin sesang gu aneso uri kuthil sunun obso
ibyorun negen ajig irungol
Jigumchoromman then I will never cry
to onjekaji ne mamsoge nega salsu ige
gochin sesang gu aneso uri kuthil sunun obso
I know that we're meant to be
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http://www.sendspace.com/file/ghr45b
No Lonerger - dedication to JEANETTE.
i dont care what DFFP says~
baby girl i am no lonerger~ oh yeah~
i am just someone who loves sitting alone (at a corner)
pls dont say me like that. i am manager not lonerger.
so pls stop it, u are hurting me. i am nth but a manager.
** watever they say, i dont listen.
i am jeanette sim not lonerger.
why do u say i am loner when i am only a lonely girl.
watever they say, i wont care.
cose loners dont give a damn.
so i am no longer, no lonerger~
*skip second verse
(bridge)
why am i such a lonerger to u? (my DFFP)
i just dont understand why u all treat me like this.
am i such a longer? anio!!!!
repeat **
dun listen girl, dun listen sim.
i am no longer, arraso~?
my DFFP do you not understand. (mollayo, anio)
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ok. char says im taking too long. haha. ok tts all i guess. bye bye.
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under the hot sun, nicole kindly lend me her cap.
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lol. extra girl behind. cant rmb who she is.
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can u see the freaking sun light? and our mian chiang smile.
i hate it when i smile lidate. its like i dunoe if i wanna smile anot.
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camwhores. we have nth to do there while waiting. waited frm 8am to 8pm ok!
sumone fell asleep?
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omg. why face so round? first sttempt. see nicole stretching her neck.
ahahaa. better. char trademark smile.
Shinhwa 'state of the art'
ying: is that minwoo up there? nicole: no its andy. char: erm, its shinhwa?
cutie lil tablo.
peace!
u can just notice the middle guy. ok im mean..jpg)
tablo, supreme t. music is his drug of choice..jpg)
cool hair!(6059).jpg)
i like this. is this his studio?
in the streets of tokyo and icecream cone..0.jpg)
look at the mole on his chin. lol.
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cold? need a hug? lol. im here!
he's really cool. master degrees in english and lit frm standford. and he gave up law school for epik high! but they like disband already rite? anyway he;s funny. and i haven watch finish the funny ep of xman with him and junjin!!!
lol. look! new lee junki pics! lol. lee junki got flowery curtains! and he not fair anymore!
i swear the way lee jun ki smiles makes me laugh. i dunoe why. its just funny.
lee jun ki said i shd post this. caz its his fave.
and u noe why?
caz cannot see his face! LOL. mianhae...*sob*
haha. and im listening to a happy song at the same time.
i want share my joy. lol. no. i wanna share this happy song.
its dedicated to MY FRENS. lol.
Shinhwa- Time Machine.
yo~ my friend, we met despite our busy work schedules
Im so glad to see you, your son has grown so much I
cant even recognize him
Your parents are doing well I assume and your
Cleopatra like wife is still the same
Your business failed but you brushed off your
shoulders and stood up again (im so proud)
give me 5, at this age high 5, hiphop hat, your heart
is rich
We havent drank together in a long time, we dont need
anything else but the drinks
The hands of time of our lives, turn it back twenty
times, lets go Time Machine
The promises to go for the end, the small office, the
heat of passion,
Dont know about anything else but my goals, dont you
miss the stage that used to greet us?
*CHORUS*
Everyone wanted a happy ending, but it wasnt the end
A lot of time is ahead of us
It cant always happen the way we want it too, then its
not fun
Sometimes, punishments become our medicine
**CHORUS*
When you are lonely, I'll be your strength (I just
wanna see your smile)
Dont even bother to call, just come (I just wanna see
your smile)
I really want you to come (I just wanna see you smile)
Time is passing, my heart is changing, the waters and
mountains are changing,
But friends are always friends. My heart has found a
refuge, a backup place
When you want to stop and rest along the way, take me
out
So you can sit anytime and rest. Earn your strengh as
you look at me, know that you can do it
*Repeat
**Repeat
The naive times, the thick mistakes, my handless love
Bury all the bad memories in time
Regain your strengh and lets start again
There are more days to live than days you have lived
already.
oh. and here are sum FUNNY pics.
can i make him my bestfren? he's so funny. brian joo. frm ftts.
my new study plan was to study til 9pm.
and use the computer at 9pm. since im only entitled to an hr a day.
but my mom's not home yet, so im taking advantage.
not really. i just felt so lousy i had to come online to blog this.
Tis mrng, i went to open my mailbox before gng to sch. (wanted to check and see if the earphones are here)
i saw a letter my youngest uncle posted to my grandma and family, and i just had the urge to take it and read it. so i took it and read it on the way to sch.
the entire letter was in chinese, i felt like i was reading a homeletter from china. haha.
anyway, his handriting is the exactly the same as my father's. tt fact kinda amused me.
i read that letter, i felt damn sad when i read the first part of the letter, then i felt quite irritated about the middle part. the last part, i got damn touched. i teared a lil after i kept the letter in my bag and tink back about contents of the letter. felt so upset i didnt even call out to carmen and samcilla when i saw them walking infront of me.
i rmb my grandmother bringing me and my sis to visit my youngest uncle when i was young. but all that stopped, like since i was primary 5? i hardly recall him. he's a young man. i tink only in his early 30's now. he had a 'bad guy' face but he smiled alot to us. i always had a scene of him with afro hair and playing with me on his lap in my mind. im not sure if tt really happened or if it was just a dream.
wadeva happened? the whole family, including my uncles and aunties seem to have forgotten about him. in the letter, he wrote that he never ever felt the family love from his older brother and sister. they only told him that it was up to him to change, and they are willing to give him tt chance to change. but he never felt that they were sincere in wad they say. afterall, no one ever showed him that they really cared. and i really tink he's rite. nobody really cared.
i felt so sad for my uncle. and i felt so guilty that i never visited him anymore. i rmb when i was younger, i asked my grandma to bring me along to see him, but she didnt want to. said there wasnt a need for me to see him. i rmb him saying once to me "last yr, ur eldest uncle always brought u out to play, tis yr ur auntie always bring u shopping. next yr, it will be my turn to bring u fun." but tt opportunity never came.
i dunoe, but i really tot that if my father, my mum or my relatives could pay him a lil more attention, if they could showed him more care and concern, maybe he wouldnt have been in the state he's in now.
and the only one who truely never gave up on him was my grandmother. i kinda forgot about the letter abit until i reached home. told my grandmother tt there was a letter. she kept telling me not to bother about him and uncontrollable tears just kept coming down (im still crying, haha.)
i tot to myself then 'had she forsaken him too?'
my heart pained for my uncle. it really did. he made many mistakes in his life. countless of mistakes. the same mistakes over and over again. it ruined him, it broke his mother's heart.
and my grandmother now, she's asking me about the letter. i noe now tt although she says she dont care, she actually does. she saw him today, but he didnt mention anyting. it took him alot of courage to rite the letter, but not enough to say it out.
so my grandmother cried, even though i failed at translating the letter to her. she told me how terrible she feels. both her sons, my father and that uncle dissapointed her again and again. i noe my grandmother's mean and bias and all. but she really loved her children alot. everyting she does is for her children. and honestly, none of them repaid that gratitude. maybe except my third uncle who's a nice, honest guy.
if i had enough courage, ill call up all my uncles and aunties and tell them all to show their brother a lil love. (which i obviously dont have.makes me an asshole.)
my grandmother told me my eldest cousin (he's 27 tis yr) called to ask me about my o'levels. he's worried bout my results and reminded her to tell me not to get too stressed and all. i was suprised. i was never close to that cousin. i used to anger him alot. and he always scolded me. i didnt tink he would even realise that i was taking my o'levels tis yr. he's offered a job with high pay overseas. but he rejected that job offer, becaz he was worried about leaving my aunt here. he's not her only son. but he's still so worried and all.
i dont noe where im trying to arrive with this blog entry. i just felt like i had to type everyting down, and read it again someday...years later?
you dont even look my way now.
(im dillusional.)
nicole made me save these pics. i tink the new hairstyle is ok now. used to dislike it.
i wonder where he finds the tym to date? considering SM is so strict and hardly even give them time to breathe. maybe she's one of the crew ppl? haha. but he looks happy. so that's cool.
im slow to only find out like a week after it.
he updated on 23rd sept.
now's wad? 2nd oct.
somebody's brother ar.
got super nice hoodies ar.
so nice but selfish dun wan share.
lol, seems like the camera man of the second pic is called herb? maybe its tt cutie cameraman we saw at shinhwa concert.
oh, i realise he uses the same camera brand as char and susanna.cannon. (is tt how u spell it?)
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im bored online.
i have nth to do.
and im not really thetype to blog bout my life.
caz my life is boring.
i wanna rite fanfics. but no ling gan.
got ling gan oso dunnoe how to rite.
my english is so dissapointing.
my combined humanities is worse.
wad the hell is rong man?
oh yeah. i used to have big bang songs in my blog.
i lost it all when i changed my layout to this current one.
and i dunnoe how to get it back. lost all the html codes and all.
and im a lil lazy to find it. bleh.
ive been eating alot lately. i just cant stop eating. my mouth feels so restless without sumting hard to chew on. hard as in crispy ok.
i post lyrics bah.
N'sync - Gone
There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change
Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..
You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...
I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to
So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do
Yeeaah....
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone
Ohhh...
Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..
But the truth remains
You're....
