courtesy of isabelle.

haha. i wonder if Char rmb this? when i saw the date at the side (22nd Nov 2005), i was asking myself "we were formed then?"

i guess it fel like we knew each other for a short time only. haha. i thought of alot of things then.

u noe, i used to think that it's ok if my friendships end adruptly. people like pheobe, melle, kelsey...blah blah blah.

i told myself that it doesnt matter because that's just normal. friends come and go, i've learnt it thru my 16 years of life.

but when i saw th msg Char left in the black book and thought back my times with DFFP, i realised life would really be empty without them.

not like we always quarrel and have many conflicts like my previous friendships, with DFFP it has always been fun,trouble and embarassment. haha. but, ive enjoyed every crazy moments.

and although we don't say it, we have the mutual trust and understanding. mayb not so much with carmen and jeanette, but with teddy bear, charzzy hero and samcila lamb. we don't know much about each other but we know when each other don't feel like talking. we don't probe when one doesnt say. it's like a reflex action. we don't need to know everything about each other, don't need to go out often or communicate often. there's no attachemnt, yet the friendship is still standing there.

ok, i think they way i depict it is weird and a lil out of point but yeah its sumting lidat.

so yup, DFFP is definetly a bunch of ppl i dont want out of my life.

im not sure if its the same for my other friends. like Melle. i'm suprised i can still talk to her, no awkward silence and wadsoever.

infact, i feel more comfortable with her now than i was when we were close friends. we only talk when i go her house to do maths which is like twice or thrice a mth? but the relationship is cool, i like it and im happy with it.

as for jaslyn and natalie, we bond every sunday. haha. im cool with that too.

for shir, i feel quite apologetic. i dont seem to be there everytime she needs somebody. i know she's not totally reliant on me end not really into 'confiding' her sorrows into me like when we were sitting together. but it's alright, caz i noe she has karen,nat and TED.

Beefy, haha, i wonder if u are reading this? but somethimes you worry me caz you worry too much. i cant do much for u as a fren. can only lend u my listening ear. i dont know how to define our relationship. we're not really close friends but we are not 'far' friends. we're partners. and yes i noe my english sucks.

NYROC. formed just a while before DFFP. we're not as close as we first were. there are doubts, unhappiness. but most of it is resolved already. jasmine and i dont really talk much now caz of our busy school life, but she is one i'll go to when depressed. but i dont really go to her much now. i just dont feel like burdening her with my stupid problems.

i know im not as precious as her secondary friends are and im not sure if i'll frienship is one that might pass on by. but i noe we both left a deep impression in each others' life. haha.

nicole and jessie. people tat add joy and entertainment into my life. i used to argue and fight with nicole alot and i dont tell jessie about myself. but they two made life very simple, easy and carefree for me. i like that, and i dont think i wanna lose that.

my previous friendships seemed to have gone to waste. seem so dim compared to what i have now. yet, im taking ppl arnd me for granted. i dont bother to do nice things for them, i dont give the support i shd give. im more into caring for myself than them. im a selfish person and a big failure as a fren.

Friends- an easy word to use, not easy to keep.

everyone else seem to be like a passing shadow in my life. in harsh words, ppl i can do without,ppl i dont give a damn about.

we'll see about it next yr, if i will abandon my current friends and move on with the next.

haha. jasmine, i dont think we will be man-haunting dbsk. more like man-haunting whoever's hot then. let me drool.

i still dont believe in the word called 'forever'.