Monday, August 07, 2006
@ 5:56 AM
curse u.
wat the fuck. i woke up tis mrng finding wad, 4 or 5 policemen in my living room.i felt so irritated, so embarassed, so angry and disgusted.and my mum tinks its caz of them in my house.like no, i would love them if i was allowed to scream at them about how screwed up one particular man made my life to be.i feel like im in some kind of typical local drama series, and i wished no part in it.i hate this house. this home. this family. i hate everything in my life.i wanna shout at my grandma "Shut up and stop defending ur useless sun."i wanna shout at my mum "Why cant you just pack ur bag and leave?"i wanna shout at the policeman "Take no one but my dad away! He's a fucking faithless, selfish, greedy, stupid and i dont know what other bad words BASTARD. And i wish they would take me away. because he never noe when to stop until he loses sumting. oh right, he wouldnt care if he lost me, why dont they take him away? i wish they would chop off his fingers. "Trust me, i wanted to say far more things than this. but no, i didnt say anything. my life would be even more drama if i did.All i did was glare at everybody and went to bathe. all i did was kick the bathroom door fucking hard caz my sis didnt reply me about what bread she wanted to eat.The policemen kept staring at me, as if wanting to ask about my behavior. one of them seem to be searching his memory and recalling if im in some sort of bad teen case. yeah great, i have the pai gia look. why dont u arrest me. ill gladly stay there. Thank god im an express student. they prob think im a normal tech student like those dramas.A family with bad parents and children. perfect.my sis told my mum ' why dont they take our dad to jail instead?'cool sis. i totally agree with u. my mum laughed at that comment. we're fucking serious. i wish my dad dead and i wish i had no family.im fucking tired. my family dont noe a thing about me. if im tearing, its not because i feel sad for this family. its just caz im fucking tired of this life.If i wasnt a secondary student, i would have left this fucked up house.but now, i cant survive on my own. Wait til i start earning my own money, im gonna make sure tis drama ends. Bad ending or not, i dont care. i just want it all to end.die. die. die.
i curse u, i damn u. i wish u gone. now and forever.
kenkenpi @ 5:56 AM
YYY